backfought.

it still sucks whenever i feel like i'm asking favors more than doing something for others. i can't help but think that these people still whine at my back, and i'm feeling ill for not being able to accept that nobody pleases everybody.

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i still don't dig why i fear knowing people who backfight, though its true that almost everyone stabs when the enemy's not around. i know i can't be the exact person everybody likes, but i confess that i often try to be one.

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on the other hand,

my filmmaking life is now going somewhere, i know i'm learning more, thanks to our sir lyle class, heck i thought it would all feel like a total haggard but every tuesday means learning something ( a lot of things, i say) new.

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i have also caught myself being more than a film buff; before, i just love watching good movies and now its like there's always an alarming concept of sorts in my mind. i can't help but enjoy shooting, and the warmth for being able to satisfy yourself in the process, is the best experience.

ma'am holmes also gave me the BEST motivation when she said that i'm doing well in class and that i could possibly get a high grade. it was like an old engine starting to fire up again after a few overhauls.

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sir vlad is being more than interesting; im enjoying his class more now.

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last night, it was FUN. i was able to watch three cinemalaya entries (ang huling araw ng linggo, batad: sa paang palay, and tulad ng dati.) ang huling araw ng linggo's story was really interesting, i enjoyed the acting too. however, its cinematography and other technicalities sucked, especially when there's a lot of handheld camera shots even if there's nothing significant using it with the story. sir lyle told us that using a handheld cam should always go with it having a relevance to the story.

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i saw some high school friends too which made me really happy. (aside from seeing the dawn and sandwich's raymond marasigan.) there came rio, pao, john, and arax. i still can't hide the fact that i terribly miss high school.

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there. all spur of the moment.