do i have to?

im tired right now and i am kinda hesitant if I should write a journal today. Anyway, I have to so now I am about to write something. But do I really have to? Nothing special happened today and I am fuckin' stuck up with loads of paperworks for Journ195 and NatSci1. How i wish i can surf the net and chat all day but since I am an "ISKOLAR NG BAYAN", ( this damn phrase reminds of thousands of responsibilities ) I should be aware of the things I should do.
in the first place, i always dreamt of being a Up student. But now, is this all I get? I then realized that UP LIFE isnt just about glitz and glamour and having the "creme dela creme" feeling. It is much more about preparing for so many struggles that life has in store for us. Bah! at least I can avail of nothing but quality education.
Thats all for now, a few hours of sleep might cure my insanity.